We find our soulmates in the places we go to find our souls.
Society is filled with people who are sleep-walking through life; constantly looking for the next hit of validation, not the next hit of reality.
I see so far through this act that I *almost* feel empathy for the people who are blind to their own addictions (keyword is almost– their journeys are not mine)
The thing is, thats not me anymore.
I have been in very few relationships, and if we are talking body count…let’s just say, mine is lower than everyone I know. I am very discerning when it comes to sharing my mind, body, and soul with people because I know how valuable each one of those entities are. I dont believe in bringing residual toxic energy into any new partnership because relationships are our mirrors.
That is truly all they are. Everything else is made up.
The people we choose to spend time with are matching the vibrational frequency we are projecting. If we don’t learn the lessons from the last mirror, then we will repeat the same dynamic over and over again until we do.
And this shit takes time to change.
Sitting in the discomfort of growth would mean you would have to face yourself and accept the flawed, vulnerable individual that you are.
I find it attractive and courageous when a person can face the reality of what is in front of them and not run an hide behind a facade. Thus, this is something I had to do for myself.
I spent the last year going to the gym regularly, lifting weights, quitting all substances, reconnecting with family, exiting any relationships that were not serving my highest good, regular therapy sessions, taking road trips with my daughter, going on solo adventures and drowning into my hobbies. I knew that in order to elevate my frequency, I would have to be alone and I would have to stop seeking outside validation and start building it from within.
And, honestly, Ive become magnetic.
To be the trifecta; beautiful, intelligent, discerning (let’s not forget witty, deeply caring and thoughtful) you end up filling others with dopamine that they really cant replicate in anyone else. Because I evolve, because I continue to learn, and reflect- I am the drug that that keeps on giving. And for anyone to have tasted it and lost it-well…I know my high can never be replicated. Good luck with settling…
This next chapter isnt about dopamine-hits, validation-seeking, or performances. It isnt about allowing parasitic energy into my world to feel less alone, or posting curated photos on social media to show off how “great” I am doing (people swear I dont see through this lol) Or showing off seedy, tasetless, tacky visuals to prove I am desirable…
It is about being a class act.
It is about being authentic.
It is about being real.
Cheers to the next chapter. And to graduate from the lessons.
So I can finally find the exceptions.
And here’s to choosing mirrors that reflect growth, not distortion.
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